You ever just lie awake in your bed staring up at the ceiling, knowing that you should pray, but feeling too rotten to? That was me last night. I had had too much caffeine too late last night and I knew it was time I talked with my God. But when I thought about it... I kinda squirmed... I didn't feel like it... I felt gross and unacceptable to pray. Funny thing is, I was... and I am. But I knew that obedience is what God has called me to do, despite what I want. So I started praying. I almost felt desperate... I was trying to put all my fears and worries into words... I don't know what was going on... but I opened my Bible in the middle of the whole thing. I was looking for a specific verse that someone has preached on at my church a few weeks ago... I just wanted to refresh my memory on what it really said. I thought it must be in chapter 93 of Psalms (don't ask me why I thought that when it really was chapter 27). Two seconds later I found something... not what I had been looking for, but a verse that comforted me more than anyone could understand. Psalms 94:18-19: "If I say, "My foot is slipping," Your faithful love will support me, Lord. When I am filled with cares, your comfort brings me joy." I was so excited! I grabbed my brand new Sharpie highlighter and marked it. What did the verse mean to me? When I feel like all I'm doing is making mistake after mistake, I can always count on Christ's love to pick me up again. When I'm burdened and down about the things I have to remember and think about, I know that I can count on being joyful, because I'll always have the comfort of Jesus. Oh, what a wonderful thought!
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