it's such a wonderful life

So! I just got home from "new student orientation" at my college!  May I just say:  I AM FREAKING PUMPED!  Now that I've gotten that out of the way, I know now where I'm going to rent a room!  It's a little bedroom in a basement and I'll have the use of my own bathroom!  So now I have to figure out what I want for the style of my room.  There are white walls, so I can pretty much do anything!  I've been going through all the possibilities in my head.... should I go dark and mellow, or should I do bright and fun??  Or should I go with a vintage style?  So many ideas popping into my head about how I can stay organized and where I'll keep my schedule... maybe I should get a magnetic dry-erase board so I can post papers with schedules on them, and then write little reminders on the board!  Oh man, I am convinced I'm a genius!  lol.. jk.  But seriously, now, I'm really itchin' to shop for some decor!

from whom all blessings flow

You ever just lie awake in your bed staring up at the ceiling, knowing that you should pray, but feeling too rotten to?  That was me last night.  I had had too much caffeine too late last night and I knew it was time I talked with my God.  But when I thought about it... I kinda squirmed... I didn't feel like it... I felt gross and unacceptable to pray.  Funny thing is, I was... and I am.  But I knew that obedience is what God has called me to do, despite what I want.  So I started praying.  I almost felt desperate... I was trying to put all my fears and worries into words... I don't know what was going on... but I opened my Bible in the middle of the whole thing.  I was looking for a specific verse that someone has preached on at my church a few weeks ago... I just wanted to refresh my memory on what it really said.  I thought it must be in chapter 93 of Psalms (don't ask me why I thought that when it really was chapter 27).  Two seconds later I found something... not what I had been looking for, but a verse that comforted me more than anyone could understand.  Psalms 94:18-19: "If I say, "My foot is slipping," Your faithful love will support me, Lord.  When I am filled with cares, your comfort brings me joy."  I was so excited!  I grabbed my brand new Sharpie highlighter and marked it.  What did the verse mean to me?  When I feel like all I'm doing is making mistake after mistake, I can always count on Christ's love to pick me up again.  When I'm burdened and down about the things I have to remember and think about, I know that I can count on being joyful, because I'll always have the comfort of Jesus.  Oh, what a wonderful thought!

<3

the freshman 15

So I was trying on dresses in the dressing room of TJ-Maxx last week and chatting with a friend who was trying on clothes in the next room.  We were joking about how "fat" we feel when we pull on something a bit too small and how we "better not gain any weight or else this shirt'll look terrible on me."  Both of us are on our way to college and so we struck up a conversation about the "freshman 15."  Oh, that dreaded concept of gaining 15 pounds within the first year of college!  My dear friend shared the story of one of her friends who reversed the process.  All she did was make a goal for herself: Whenever I feel like reaching for a donut or a late-night bag of Doritos, I will reach for something better like carrot sticks or yogurt.  She didn't get a gym membership or work out or anything... she just ate healthy food and ended up losing 15 pounds while the rest of the class gained 15 pounds.

the moral of the story:  gee whiz, i hope i make that goal within the first week of my being on campus!

gradumacated

That's right, folks, I'm all graduated.  My parents handed me my diploma last Saturday in front of a bunch of people.  They said a few things and then just put it in my hand... I was almost positive that my mom would bawl her eyes out... but instead, I felt a few tears filling up my eyes... Anyways, then I gave a horrific speech consisting of stutters, nervous giggling, and repeated sentences.... I had left my piece of paper with my "speech outline" at home... just my luck.

Anyway, it was great and now I'm just getting ready to walk with the local high school.  I am guaranteed to get a scholarship from them and I'm in the running for another from the state.  YES!  There's the possibility that I won't have to worry about paying for *anything* this year.. except for rent and all..

In other news, for the past couple days, during 1st block (during which I'm a Teacher's Assistant), we've been watching Bicentennial Man with Robin Williams.  It's about this robot who slowly become more and more human, falling in love with a girl, marrying her, and trying to legally become a human.  It's sooo sweet and I love it.  So watch it... it's pretty good! <3

not enough iced coffee

I just can't get enough of coffee lately.  I just feel like a need a ton of it in order to get through the next couple hours... but I can't ahve any at night because I won't go to sleep!  So I take naps and try to feel as rested as possible.  Naps are helpful, but still don't give me the energy that a small iced coffee from McDonalds with one cream, two sugars does.  How am I supposed to get through the rest of the week?  And it's not like I'm going to have time to sleep on the weekend too....

Another part of this is my brain.  My friend, Karla, was talking to me earlier while I was typing on the computer.  When I usually would be able to listen and type at the same time, I felt overwhelmed and couldn't seem to focus on either thing.

On the other hand, I've got a huge project due for my statistics class and I feel like I'm doing most of the work and my partner isn't helping much.  He sits around and talks about his girlfriend and rates other girls' "hotness" with his friend.  *sigh* guys... what are you gonna do with them?

I was driving home from the store the other day and I looked up, and noticed that you have a really great view of a big mountain in the one particular place.  I thought to myself how much different it'll be to have to live in a much flatter region than what I'm used to...

Now to get to that project...